Suspended Reality

The four walls of her room had been discussing a certain disturbing matter at a great length. Five and a half months had passed without her having had much of an emotional outburst or fit of rage. They had waited for pillows and clothes to come hurtling towards them. She chose to sit down and stare blankly into her laptop screen instead. They wanted her to scream till her voice went, for containing her anger gave them purpose. She hummed quietly to herself all night long.

The four walls of her room kept waiting; something was sure to trigger a response one of these days. She smiled reluctantly at the sunlight and buried it deep inside. They were worried that she would give herself an ulcer like this. She hadn't fallen ill in all this time. They presumed she had given chosen to turn the blindest of eyes and see only the glittering fantasies of a dream.

The four walls of her room sighed in relief at her smile. She did too.

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  1. PriyankaMarch 10, 2011 at 11:48 PM

    This is scaring me just a little bit because I just had an evening like this some time back, only with another song.

    Now I'm worried about an ulcer.

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